My Experience with Body Dysmorphia

body dysmorphia

This week, I’m getting downright open and vulnerable with you.

But before I go any further, I first want you to know that what’s shared here shouldn’t be taken as medical advice.

I’m openly sharing my story, experience and perspective to bring awareness surrounding this topic.

If after listening you feel that you may be struggling with body dysmorphia or this level of depression, please be sure to seek the professional support you deserve!

Now for the sharing side of things…

At some point or another have you obsessively looked at yourself in the mirror, and picked/ pointed out parts of yourself that you couldn’t stand to look at?

So much so that it consumed your mind to the point that you couldn’t think of anything else?

Did this self-perceived flaw stop you from living your life?

Meaning did you skip hanging out with your friends, call in sick to work, or let it get in the way of you and your studies?

I ask because up until 3 or so years ago, this was my daily reality. 

From the time that I was in the 5th grade, right up until I was about 25, would I wake up every single morning and start the day by picking myself apart in the mirror. 

Now, you might be thinking… all girls have done that at some point or another, what’s the big deal

The big deal is that this became my daily obsession. 

But it didn’t only start and stop in the morning.

It carried on all day long. 

Every single thought I had was centred around how I looked, and how worried I was that someone would notice my flawed distorted face, and body. 

And if I wasn’t obsessively thinking about it, then I was super focused on trying to hide myself.

Whether it was layers of studio make-up, baggy nike sweaters that I’d wear 5-days in a row, or trying to distract those who saw me with fake eyelashes, or fake tans.

Most days I wouldn’t even leave my room without make-up on.

Never mind the house.

Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), or Body Dysmorphia, is a mental health condition that affects a person’s body image. This condition can be so severe that it affects the person’s life, well-being, and ability to function.

Again, I share this with you because if you’re feeling or experience any of these things, I want you to know you’re not alone.

And you’re definitely not crazy… even though you might feel like it.

I’ve absolutely been in your shoes and I know how painful it can feel to live with this type of obsession.

But it doesn’t have to be this way!

You can absolutely break free from this place of self-judgment, disgust, and hatred.

If anything I’m sharing is resonating with you… I encourage you to give this weeks episode a listen.

Because this week I’ll be shining some light on my experience with body dysmorphia, and will give you some insight on how I broke the state of this obsession.

Does that sound like something you could use in your life?

If so, I’ll see you on the other side.

The Biggest Takeaways from This Episode

  • What in the heck is body dysmorphia (common signs and symptoms to look out for)
  • My personal experience with body dysmorphia (my behaviours, how I felt, when I realized what it was, and how I worked through it)
  • How I was able to break this pattern and work through it
  • What body dysmorphia has to do with disconnected eating

Resources Mentioned in This Episode:

  • Get caught up on last week’s episode, How to be Body Positive without Losing Weight.
  • Want to connect with fellow soul sisters who are also ditchin’ diets, making peace with food, and coming home to their bodies? Join Turn up the Love Insiders! My totally FREE FB Group for all things Self-Love.
  • If you’d like to take this journey even further, my calendar has recently opened up, and I’m taking on private clients to work with 1:1 on healing their relationship with food and coming home to their bodies. Setup a Meet + Greet to see if we’d make a good fit!
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